Friday 28 September 2012

At that moment in time...


I open my eyes
My vision does not change
It's darker still
Darker than it was when I had my eyes shut

I close them again
"What have I become?" I think to myself
"You became what you were aiming for right from the start" I hear the voice saying

I open my eyes 
It's darker still
But it's a different kind of darkness
One I can smell, touch and taste
Darkness I can feel, entering through each and every pore of my skin
Filling me up 
Engulfing me
Soon enough, my insides are one with my surrounding 
My skin grows thinner 
Until it ceases to exist

I think to myself "what have I become?"
I crave for the voice that once left me petrified to answer me back
I silently scream begging to be heard

But my question although has left my mind
Never made it to my lips
And I lay there fighting with my own demons 
Alone
In the darkness that I have become

Monday 24 September 2012

In a parallel existence

I still exist
Although I have become odorless
The same night my detached shadow deserted me
I strolled and strolled endlessly 
But I was going in circles ... And the shadow was nowhere to be seen

I still exist
Although I have become expressionless 
My lips sealed with a needle and a thread
My fingers glued to an invisible wall 
My brains, once scrambled, now dry

I still exist 
Although I have become colorless
And the dead skin around my extremities is pealing off on its own. Slowly. 
Even my skin has chosen to split with me

As I stand here and decay
I know that in your memory
I still exist