winter

Seeing the gloomy weather
This afternoon
I was just thinking
How I am afraid of the first raindrops
Because they remind me of you
How terrified I am at the thought
Of winter coming back
Without you here and around

And the rain started

A huge smile on my face
Hides the thoughts
That are tearing me from the inside

I do not want to go out
I do not want to smell
The wet soil

I just want to be
On my own
In my mind
Where together we are
Only in a different time

I never thought I would wait for the sun
To shake the thoughts of you apart