I was told I should write about my feelings
That it would make me feel better
I was told I should let it all out; the memory, the smile, the sight and the tear
Yes, it is true, the tear.
Seeking change is a human trait
Wanting to move on, to develop inside out, is a human trait
But why the sadness?
Why the tears?
Why the sleeplessness?
If the call is true, straight from the heart …?
I needed a change
I needed to move on
I am stuck,
How could it be, feeling and wanting and escaping from and desiring …. How can it be? Experiencing all these feelings in one exact moment…
This doesn’t make me feel any better.
"Sometimes I am the colour of air
Sometimes it's only afterwards
I find that I'm not there"